Getting there

We are both doing much better now as time goes on, although in the back of my mind I still can't stop counting the weeks.... I keep remembering that I would have been 12 weeks this week. I am still not really sleeping for some strange reason, I wake up at least 5 or 6 times a night. We are off to Belgium this weekend for a friends wedding which I am so excited for, and then off to Spain for a week of sunshine...... I am so looking forward to our holiday and to some serious r&r. I'm sure we will come back refreshed and energised and ready to face the world again :-)

Healing

So it has now been just over 4 weeks since we lost the baby. My first period came bang on 28 days after the miscarriage on Saturday 5th July (Happy birthday to me huh!!) so my body is definitely going back to normal. As to my heart.... it is slowly healing but boy does it still hurt. I feel quite frustrated as I feel I should be "better" by now but my emotions are still all over the place and it's a good day if I don't cry. I do feel like people expect me to be over it by now and I really wish it was as simple as that.